“You’re the only one who can leave me completely breathless even when there’s nothing but silence between us. It’s like I can lay beside you and we not say a single word and still I have the best time.”
Omfg, it’s been long since I tumblred. Haha, but the good thing is that I’ve stopped blogging. Till when I feel like going back then :> Most of my time were spent working and slacking @ Limbang. Gosh gosh, I can’t wait for poly to start! To make more new friends <3 Teehee ^^. I’ve put everything down and walk a new life, my past, my memories. Thou memories do trigger sometimes. But it’s okay, it’s a good thing that he doesn’t really affect my life much now! If you leave without a reason, don’t come back with an excuse (Y) You did come back with an excuse. I was fooled once, but I will never get fooled again bastard -‘- Hehheh, okay! Shall stop here tuuuday alright. Hopefully I will update my tumblr EVERYDAY huh;D Ciao,
I’m sad.
Why is everything happening to me? Why can’t I just live happily? I’m sad. Anyone can save me out of this misery? I’m stupid. I can’t get him to love me anymore. Yet I’m still holding on to him. “Even he’s with you, his heart won’t be with you” Yes, I know this theory.. But I just can’t let go of him, its too hard. How I wish, my eyes were blind, so that I just see you doing what with others. How I wish I’ve bran tumor, so I can be as dump as others. Not knowing you and have no feelings. I’m stupid. I’m really stupid, I really don’t know. Something ask me to give up, but why am I so stubborn? WHY?!
For you, 29th.
Promise me that you will take care of yourself.
Promise me that you will be happy.
Promise me that you will always think of the 29th.
Promise me that you will miss me on the 29th.
Promise me that you will recall the memories on the 29th.
Promise me that you will love me on the 29th.
Promise me that you will look at the stars on the 29th. Coz I’ll be just like the stars above you. Like a guardian angel.
Just on the 29th.
And I will promise you that I will love you forever.
Promise you that I will hurt myself forever.
Promise you that I won’t believe in true love anymore.
Promise you that I won’t trust any guy anymore.
Promise you that I won’t irritat you anymore.
Promise you that I will be there for you.
I’m tired, too tired. I need to stop, I need a stop to rest. I’m falling and no one’s catching. 3
Baby, I love you. But things changed.
I’m crying. Crying hard. No one cares, no one bothers. I’ve let him go, and you keep saying that I didn’t. But in fact, I really did. Baby, it’s hurting me real deep. I just can’t accept the truth.
Accept the truth that you don’t care bout me anymore, the fact that you don’t feel my presence. The fact that I’m just a toy of yours. The fact that I’m not important to you anymore. Lastly, the fact that you don’t love me anymore..
I really want that guy that can care and love me consistently. That guy that will talk to me to sleep everyday. But I can’t get that guy anymore. Is it the end of our love story? Is that song you sang to me today is for others? Not for me? I’m just a idiot, a fool. I wanted to give up many many times. But you treated me better and the mentally of giving up is gone. But yet, when I can trust you, you treated me nastily again.
The past of you, talking me to sleep every night, is gone. The present you, playing maple, showing me attitude, sleep already also never tell me. Hinting me not to call you after we part from your house?? Who am I really to you? I girl who go your house to let you hug and kiss. And after the girl left, no contact?? I’m really sad. Really really sad.
Lastly, I’ll still be a fool loving you. A fool that cares for you and yet you don’t care. A fool that treated you important but you don’t. I’ll do this till the day I’m tired. Till the day, you got what you want. Me leaving you, won’t irritate you anymore..
Please fate, for me.
Hey you,
So here we are, nearly two years after I first fell in love with you. To say its been easy would be a lie, its been hard, really hard. Its been hard ever since that very first night we kissed. The night where you were still hers, and I wasn’t supposed to care. I knew it was different. I knew you were different. And for the next eight months I spent nights wide-awake trying to figure out why I couldn’t get you out of my head. But that summer when we sat outside until the sun rose, drinking wine and eating lasagna for breakfast, I knew it wasn’t all in my head. I don’t know how I did it; I don’t know how I made you fall in love with me by solely being myself. I told you all the things I had tried so hard to hide, but nothing stopped you. You accepted it, all of it, and you held me when I thought I couldn’t go anymore. And in return I held you. Those cold autumn days that turned into nights as we kissed by the water were some of the happiest of my life. I never knew someone could make me feel infinite, but you did. You still do. You always will.
I will never forget the nights I spent crying out of fear, the nights where you seemed out of reach, the nights where I thought you were done with this, with us. But when I look back at the last two years those times seem irrelevant, because nothing is perfect, we’re not perfect. The tears, the fights, and the words that cut us were inevitable, but in the end love brought us through, the reason we didn’t and couldn’t say goodbye. And I hope we never will.
We’re packing up soon, going to a new place together, as friends. I know its time, time to let fate play its role, and the only reason I’m letting go is because if we’re meant to be together we will be, someday. And that day I will tell you forever. I want forever. I swear I do. But if you find a girl these next few years that makes you smile on the days that I couldn’t, look back at the times we had together and smile and know I will be too.
I love you selflessly and completely.
Way better than the movies.
She’s been feeling sick since yesterday, blowing her nose every five minutes while on the phone with him. Regardless of what the time is, he stays on the phone with her. She ends up going to sleep and saying goodnight to him. She wakes up in the middle of the night, yet still goes to school that morning. Near the end of 2nd block, she can’t take it anymore, feeling lousy and broken down, so she chooses to go home. She stops by his class after borrowing his umbrella to tell him that she’s leaving school for the day. He exchanges a couple words of “goodbye” and “Feel better” and gives her a kiss and hug, letting her go. She leaves school and walks to the bus station, waiting for her bus to come. She can’t hear anything but the sound of the rain pouring and her music playing. Minutes go by. The school bell rings, and she turns around to look at the swarm of students walking to opposite buildings, trying to avoid the rain. She waits. All of a sudden, she hears a big thump. She looks down on the ground and its a binder. A binder that has a familiar look to it. She looks up, and its him, coming under the umbrella with no jacket or anything. A big smile grows on her face. He lifts her chin up and gives her a soft kiss on the lips.
“I didn’t want you to wait for the bus alone,” he says.
I like to see people reunited, maybe that’s a silly thing, but what can I say, I like to see people run into each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can’t tell fast enough, the ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone.
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Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close (via casimms)
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